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Adventures in Depression

Adventures in Depression
Some people have a legitimate reason to feel depressed, but not me. I just woke up one day feeling sad and helpless for absolutely no reason. It's disappointing to feel sad for no reason. Sadness can be almost pleasantly indulgent when you have a way to justify it - you can listen to sad music and imagine yourself as the protagonist in a dramatic movie. But my sadness didn't have a purpose. Essentially, I was being robbed of my right to feel self pity, which is the only redeeming part of sadness. And for a little bit, that was a good enough reason to pity myself. Standing around feeling sorry for myself was momentarily exhilarating, but I grew tired of it quickly. I tried to force myself to not be sad. But trying to use willpower to overcome the apathetic sort of sadness that accompanies depression is like a person with no arms trying to punch themselves until their hands grow back. When I couldn't will myself to not be sad, I became frustrated and angry. Which made me more sad.

Depression Part Two I remember being endlessly entertained by the adventures of my toys. Some days they died repeated, violent deaths, other days they traveled to space or discussed my swim lessons and how I absolutely should be allowed in the deep end of the pool, especially since I was such a talented doggy-paddler. I didn't understand why it was fun for me, it just was. But as I grew older, it became harder and harder to access that expansive imaginary space that made my toys fun. I played out all the same story lines that had been fun before, but the meaning had disappeared. Depression feels almost exactly like that, except about everything. At first, though, the invulnerability that accompanied the detachment was exhilarating. The beginning of my depression had been nothing but feelings, so the emotional deadening that followed was a welcome relief. Which leads to horrible, soul-decaying boredom. Months oozed by, and I gradually came to accept that maybe enjoyment was not a thing I got to feel anymore.

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Watercolor by techgnotic on deviantART An Essay On Depression Depression is not only a state of being sad, it is a disease that conquers the ability to feel emotion, whether good or bad, whatsoever. Depression not only involves the mind, it also involves the body and thoughts. In different cultures some complain of excessive headaches and extreme pain and this is identified as depression, moderate or otherwise. Major Depression is the most severe case of depression that there is. Dysthymic Depression is a low level of depression that lasts up to at least two years and in most cases longer. Bipolar Depression, also known as, Manic Depression, is yet another type of Depression. Although all age groups are open to depression, teenagers are the most common to be heard of being affected by the disease. Depression’s cost to the United States economy every year is estimated at forty-four billion dollars. One great risk for becoming depressed is if you smoke. Genes also have a lot to do with Depression. There are many symptoms of depression.

Amazing Underground Art In Stockholm’s Metro Station EmailEmail A casual underground ride in Stockholm becomes quite a treat for the eyes of the passengers, as most of the stations in the capital of Sweden are showcasing some amazing underground artwork. Russian software architect Alexander Dragunov must’ve really enjoyed his rides as well, and made some stunning shots of the underground artwork. The pictures below were taken in the Solna Centrum station, were the cave-like installations were created by artists Anders Aberg and Karl-Olov Bjor back in the 1970s. Ever since 19th century, a debate has been going on in Sweden about the need to make art more accessible to people outside the salons. No wonder then that with the first proper underground line opened in 1950, various artwork was installed in the stations shortly. Website: adragunov.com

How To Be Kind To Yourself “Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for a kindness” – Seneca A couple of days ago someone said to me: “Be kind to yourself!” Ever since hearing these words they have been stuck in my head. I started with how it feels to have someone be kind to you. I’ve been thinking about how you can be kind to yourself and benefits of doing so. Be Patient It is important to be patient with yourself if you are battling with a task. Now I think: “What if I had said that to myself and not relied on the teacher to divert me from unkind behavior towards myself?” Watch Your Words Everybody has self-talk or self-chatter. I know that if someone said directly to me some of the reprimands that I give myself, I would be extremely hurt. Encourage Yourself When things are tough or you are battling with something, encouragement is a wonderful means of giving you a boost. Forgive Forgiveness is often not easy. Give You give to others in order to rejuvenate them. Listen Allow Give Advice Photo by Nattu

Sign Painters: What a Disappearing Art Teaches Us About Creative Purpose and Process by Maria Popova “It is at the moment o f a craft’s disappearance that its cultural value suddenly becomes plain to see.” As a lover of exquisite hand-lettering, elegant vintage-inspired typography, and vibrant storefront signage, I was instantly smitten with Sign Painters (public library) — a stunning companion to Faythe Levine and Sam Macon’s documentary of the same title, exploring the disappearing art through interviews with some of its most prominent masters amidst a lavish gallery of extraordinary hand-painted signage, with a foreword by Ed Ruscha. But this is no mere eye candy — brimming with candid insights, personal stories, and wisdom on the creative life, the book envelops the “what” with rich and ample layers of the “how” and the “why.” Macon affirms this in the introduction: This book, like the job of the sign painter, isn’t always about eye-popping, flashy designs. In setting on this topic, Levine and Macon are just in time. Bigger and better machines became available.

Hey, i have a town, but i am really lonely. Anyone want to come live at valcar? I'm really good at teaching new players. : Civcraft Coding as a Liberal Art February 5, 12:30pm ETBerkman Center for Internet & Society, 23 Everett St, 2nd FloorRSVP required for those attending in person via the form belowThis event will be webcast live at 12:30pm ET. What is the purpose of a liberal arts education? Commencement speakers have assured generations of college graduates that the real value is less in what they've learned than in how they've learned to think. This talk will present a personal case study in learning to think through code. Along the way, it will argue that coding belongs not just on the periphery of the liberal arts, but at the center of a new canon. About Diana Diana is an MBA candidate at Harvard Business School. As a co-creator of ROFLCon, Diana's interest in internet culture runs deep. Links

Making a difference to the people who influenced in your life planet.nz 2-days ago I watched this TEDTalk by Amanda Palmer titled “The art of asking” (the video is under the post), Amanda talks about not only asking but the personal connections created by it. Just a few minutes after I finished watching it I received some devastating news, one of the most beloved teachers from my primary school passed away by his own hand. This has rattled not only people who still knew him, but students of past that he made an impact on. A very large number of my old class mates have commented in various posts (some do not know how he passed) that they wish they just went to see him 1 last time to show their appreciation, the ones who do know how have really stood up, some feeling guilt over not telling him how much of an impact this primary school teacher actually had on their lives. Lets rally together and from today! There are a number ways to do this and here are a few ideas: Now, the TEDTalk by Amanda Palmer: The following two tabs change content below.

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The crayola-fication of the world: How we gave colors names, and it messed with our brains (part I) “Who in the rainbow can draw the line where the violet tint ends and the orange tint begins? Distinctly we see the difference of the colors, but where exactly does the one first blendingly enter into the other? So with sanity and insanity.” Spectral Rhythm. In Japan, people often refer to traffic lights as being blue in color. Blue and green are similar in hue. One of the first fences in this color continuum came from an unlikely place – crayons. Reconstructing the rainbow. In modern Japanese, midori is the word for green, as distinct from blue. And it’s not just Japanese. (Update: Some clarifications here. I find this fascinating, because it highlights a powerful idea about how we might see the world. Imagine that you had a rainbow-colored piece of paper that smoothly blends from one color to the other. A map of color for an English speaker. But if you think about it, there’s a real puzzle here. This question was first addressed by Brent Berlin and Paul Kay in the late 1960s.

The Best Art Books of 2012 by Maria Popova From Indian folklore to Paris vs. NYC, by way of Japanese Wonderland and 80 years of loving of dogs. After last week’s look at the best science books of 2012, the season’s indulgently subjective and non-exhaustive best-of reading lists continue with the year’s favorite art books, in no particular order. (Catch up on last year’s roundup here.) From visionary Indian indie publisher Tara Books, who for nearly two decades have been giving voice to marginalized art and literature through a commune of artists, writers, and designers collaborating on beautifully crafted books celebrating Indian folk art traditions. Tejubehan takes us on a journey from her small village into the big city, where her poor parents move to find work. It is like magic. We reach the city! At its heart, however, the story is really a feminist story — a vision for women’s liberation in a culture with oppressive gender norms and limiting social expectations. I like cars. He writes in the introduction:

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This article is speaking about depression and the journey along the way. Some people may have a reason to feel depressed and wanting to be alone. But sometimes, people will just wake up one morning feeling sad or even nothing at all . You wonder to yourself why you have this horrible feeling of sadness and what is driving it. You know you are depressed, but there is no reason why. Along the way you lay down alot and sleep and feel as if you hate yourself. All you want to do it curl up in a corner and pretend you are not even there. After awhile, you finally go out despite your horrible feeling. You realize that this feeling will go away and you just have to try something that will make you feel happy. by bridgets_sstories Apr 8

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